Origin Story Part 3- The one where she gets to have it all

Can you have it all?

The era of girl boss and mom boss and boss babe, everything painted this perfect picture of what working women were supposed to look like?

If you were too focused on your career, were you a selfish mother?

IF you wanted to stay home with your babies, would you not be considered by society as ambitious or driven?

What does having it all even mean? For me, it meant trying to be everything to everyone and landing in the fast lane to burn out land.

After Kobe died and the world shut down, I had to slow down long enough to sit with myself. I know I'm not alone in my reevaluation of life and my values during the pandemic. I think we all looked at our lives and decided to make big changes.

In Q1 2020, I was making more in a month than I used to in a year... but I had to have a team of 20 to maintain any sense of sanity.

I had hit every goal I had ever set for myself, in record time.

But each goal led to, another goal. And I started to, honestly, become numb to it. My marriage wasn't failing, but it wasn't great. My kids were being raised by everyone else, and I missed some of their biggest moments. For what? To say I had built this crazy big business?

I had built it, but I didn't build it on the foundation of my own personal values.

So I asked myself, What do I truly care about?

I actually don't care about money. I care about the freedom having money gives you.

I didn't want the fancy cars, I left Mercedes and ran back to Honda.

I had a house with a theatre in it, but I had to have 3 people to help me keep up with it. I wasn't even home enough to enjoy it.

So I stopped taking clients, I pivoted my business model to just selling my courses. I cancelled my big event. And we bought an RV. We pulled our kids from school and decided we would explore a new way of living. We spent a year just traveling and visiting all the places I had never had time to visit before.

We Disney'd a lot. We hiked, we got passport stamps, we camped, and we explored. We downsized to a townhome, in our beloved community and got quiet.

We lived totally off of our funnels and passive income from our courses for years. I'm grateful for that time to connect and to be present.

I spent time in nature. And you know what? It was really great, and then... kinda boring. We got tired of so much togetherness. We missed our routine.

And I felt like I was "just a stay-at-home mom" again. (ps, hardest job ever.). I wasn't proud of me, I wasn't doing this work to just make money. I started this to show people an alternative path to success. So, if the answer wasn't to do nothing and become nomads... what was it?

Service. Being in service to our family first, then using our gifts to be in service to the world.

We put 2 of our kids back in school, and I decided to build it all back, in a way that wasn't just about money, but was about helping others. Sure, I have massive goals, but this time. I have them with a values foundation in place, first.

So, here I am documenting, in my new newsletter, my big rebrand and new path. My goal is to build my business back to 7 figures again, but in a way that doesn't burn me out, take me away from my babies, or make me feel like I'm not contributing to society in a productive way.

I want to make my kids proud. I want them to see me going after my dreams, not just telling them to pursue theirs. I want them to follow what I do, not what I say.

So cheers, Trailblazers. I'm gifting everyone who subscribes to my newsletter, my new workbook. Your Brand Bible.™.

I'm excited to share it with you. Thanks for reading!